I think I'm gonna like it here

we are moved!
Day two went by beautifully, and the weather was gorgeous!
we walked down to the market with baby girl in the stroller,she was thrilled, loved being outside. we took a stroll down the main walking path that runs through town.. it was an awesome day.

Baby girl is loving it here, so are we.

Bittersweetness

We went to the going away party, it was really fun and bittersweet. I've had my mind on packing so much that it's really starting to hit me, the people I will miss after we move.

And my dear friends here, (in town) how I will miss them. I've been trying to see everyone, and I'll see a couple of my friends over these next two days, it will be hard. It was hard tonight...such a bittersweet time. I said good bye to one of my close friends last weekend, but it was still far enough away that it hadn't really sunk in yet... now it is. I feel weepy.

So much to look forward to, and yet, a bit to be sad to leave behind.

Cunksi and her Ate are fast asleep. I can't get my mind to quit, so i'm awake. Lots to do tomorrow. Then we'll load the truck. Sniff......

i should go try to sleep.

Attachment parenting.. and other stuff

I'm nearing the end of my rope.
I'm tired, and sick of all this moving business.
cunksi is sick of it too. She is going through separation anxiety.....from me..... and teething.
Spending time with her Ate, simply WILL NOT do. It's INA and ONLY INA. All others will get a screaming, crying reaction.
Meanwhile, we have to pack up the rest of the stuff and clean the house. So, I have put her in the sling... THANK GOD FOR THAT THING...(did I mention ho I couldn't live without that?) and have gone about my business, fairly easily. I read someone's post about how she was sick and her son wanted her, she said.."the thing about attachment parenting is (his name) is always up my ass."
That is soo true.
But it is so worthwhile.
I know she needs me to be with her right now.. things are all out of whack with our usual schedule, and she knows something big is going on, and in addition.. her teeth hurt.
It's ok. It's going to be OK.
I'm a mom, this is what I was put here to do.

Tonight, we will be going to Mihigna's going away party, his coworkers are throwing for him. Sweet.
Bad timing, but sweet. It will be nice to see everyone and say our goodbyes, they are all very nice, very kind, very sweet people.
they will be missed.
For now, I'm off to see if I can do some more packing.. which is more resemblant at this point to.. find a box and start throwing shit into it, we'll figure it out when we get there.

I look over at cunksi and get caught, she is so amazing, does such amazing things... i would rather sit here and watch her all day.

Leave?

I'm not sure if I will be maintaining this page, i post at two other pages. i'll see, maybe ill keep it around...if i can figure out how to use it better, posting pics and such.

stupid jacked up world

It's raining and gray, and we're supposed to get snow.
That depresses me. I want spring, and green and warm breezes.

I am really depressed by the fact that in this day and age, parents can treat their children horrifically and not have ANY consequences. Short of setting them on fire, the "powers that be" will still return them to their unstable, psychotic parents, and let them continue to live in violent situations.

It all makes me want to cry. It's all so unfair. and WRONG. and such BULLSHIT.

My plans

I think I am going to go to medical school, or get a PHD in clinical Psych.

My friend and I were sitting around talking and she has informed me that these are good choices.

How ironic, I'd never seriously considered either one before, and now it is like, why not.

So, here I go.

Here comes the rain again....

they say we will have a thunderstorm tonight... our first of the season. How very exciting! Mihigna and I love thunderstorms... well, he more than I, the boominess and sudden crashes frighten me a bit... I'm afeared of getting struck by lightening. But it makes snuggling up to him all the nicer. I like them during the day.

The first t-storm means that spring is really here. The return of the thunder beings... in Lakota culture, we have a celebration for it and everything.

I'm excited. Changing seasons always excite me. Spring is wonderful, rebirth, renewal, clearing and cleansing. Spring means time to shake off the dust of winter and get realigned.

And now, mihigna and I have all these new things happening. Soon we will have a new home, new adventures, new surroundings... all sorts of newness, coming up like daffodils. And this year, we have a wee one to share it all with. (Did I mention I LOVE being an Ina?)

Part of the newness is that I'm going to make it ...try to make it, more regular that I'm posting, and not be quite so absent for so long.
But for now, kiohphya.
Miye